May 19, 2017

Day 139 of 365, Friday. The vasculitis saga continues. As I mentioned in the previous post, I have been embarrassed about my legs, and I had a tiny pity party about it. I didn't want to show my legs to anyone, so after I left my aunt's house I went to the mall to look for some light weight long pants (it is summer after all, and it is already hot). I didn't find any pants, but I did buy a long, flowy skirt. Anyway, that is not the point. As I left the mall, for the first time in my life I noticed our church steeple visible from the parking lot. OK, I get it. Chill out and accept who you are, flaws and all. I'm still struggling, but am trying.

May 18, 2017

Day 138 of 365, Thursday. This post is hard, but I am trying to be a better person and accept who I am with all my flaws. To be honest, I actually took this picture on Friday but I am using it for Thursday. It may make sense later. 

On Sunday I noticed some red bumps on my legs and feet which I thought were flea bites but they didn't itch. By Tuesday, they were moving up my legs. By Thursday, they were up to my knees. As it turns out, I have vasculitis which came from either a cold I had two weeks ago or a cat scratch from one of the farm cats. Either way, I have been very embarrassed about how my legs look. I have never liked my legs anyway because of all the spider veins I have, and this has just made it worse. I am posting this picture and writing about it in an attempt to be less vain, and let it be what it is. This picture doesn't truly show how bad they look, but you will get the general idea.